CONFESSIONS--because they have been on my mind lately.
I wish I could sleep in until 10 every morning. Here is a picture of me doing just that (just so I can remember in case it never happens again). I remember this ghetto hotel well...towels the size of wash cloths and scratchy linens on the bed. I was also unknowingly pregnant and sick with Isaac. One time I read in a book about my great grandma (who had 9 daughters) that she too liked to sleep in...and she did! I guess she went back to bed after she made a big breakfast and sent her kids off to school. Some would say lazy, but I say, HEAVENLY! My favorite is to eat a big breakfast on a Saturday morning and then get back under the blankets...Kyle used to let me do this every once in awhile too--back when we had one or two children.
If I could, I would eat dessert for every meal. I just love my chocolate and ice cream so much! I've tried to curb it a bit...but to no avail.
Sometimes my lunch consists of a sandwich and a candy bar. And sometimes it is just a candy bar. Mars Bars and recently peanut butter cups (frozen) are my favorite. And yes, I put that information in there just in case anyone wants to be nice to me someday.
Sometimes my lunch consists of a sandwich and a candy bar. And sometimes it is just a candy bar. Mars Bars and recently peanut butter cups (frozen) are my favorite. And yes, I put that information in there just in case anyone wants to be nice to me someday.
I hate having gross dirty dishes in the sink and I hate having things on my floor. Sometimes I just pile everything on the couch or table JUST so it isn't on my floor. Maybe a little OCD about it? I don't know. But I'm cured of both for now, my sink and floors look just like this more often than not. What to do? I have two babies that seem to always need me to hold them. I have to let a lot go these days--and I am...but sometimes I cry about it too!! I'm sure I'll get comfortable with being a slob one of these days.
(and yes this is a picture of my sink yesterday. I did have 10 children at my house but still...gross)
I'm torn. Torn into pieces about these two being separated all day long since Isaac is now in all day 1st grade. Even Ruby is having a hard time. After we dropped Isaac off at school she wandered around moaning and crying his name. After we dropped Luke off at preschool she mourned for him as well. It was sad knowing that I couldn't talk to Isaac and ask him how his day was going. It was great that I didn't have to break up so many fights. But I still have Ruby and she is the biggest fighter of them all!!
Secretly I wish I home-schooled my children. But I can't for two reasons--ONE I lack the patience necessary to teach my own children...really, tantrums erupt from me out of frustration sometimes when I'm trying to teach them something. It is pitiful. And TWO I fear the social awkwardness that we all know sometimes occurs with home-schooled children. I'm sorry, I do have friends who home school and I think they are wonderful...however in my experience growing up, all the home-schooled children were a little "off". Which shouldn't matter, because they were all CTR pros and very smart but unfortunately, it matters to me.
So I apologize to my little ones who will come back to me a little more corrupted by the world and those "other" kids:)...but hopefully I can brush the world off them when they walk in the door. They are both so innocent still. Luke doesn't even know what the word fart means (because I detest that word so it never gets used...along with a million others). I loved that when his uncle (who we all love and adore) tried to get my boys to smile for the camera using fart jokes both boys just sat there dazed and confused. I just want to keep them sweet for as long as possible because we all what little boys are capable of:) so I'm just stalling for a few years.
My last confession for today--I wish I could be a star in a musical. Problem is, I can't sing or dance and only THINK I can act. But I'm hoping in the next life I magically inherit these talents. Look for me in the next Broadway musical. In the next life of course.
